In spite of his holiness, however, Brother Bernard had
serious misgivings as to the state of his own soul. He could not imagine
himself living in Paradise forever without becoming weary of it.
"Alas!" he cried, "we tire of everything upon
this earth, and I fear that even an eternity of bliss would at last become
monotonous. The vesper hymn is very sweet, but I should not care for it
unceasingly."
He was so tormented by this thought that he could neither
read nor pray. At the foot of the mountain on which the Monastery was built
stood a great forest, and here he wandered for hours in the shade of the giant
trees, so absorbed in his reflections that he paid no heed to where he trod. At
last he prayed that God would work some miracle that he might know that life in
Heaven would neither be dull nor dreary.
After a while he grew fatigued by his long ramble and looked
around to see whence he had come. To his surprise he found himself in an
unknown part of the forest, and on reaching a clearing where the sunlight
streamed on the fallen needles of the pines, he threw himself into the midst of
their fragrance to rest awhile. Just then a little bird, with plumage the
colour of the sky itself, alighted on the branch above him, and began to sing.
So pure and exquisite were its notes that Brother Bernard listened in ecstasy
until the sweet song ceased. As the bird vanished, the monk rose from his seat.
"Dear me," he cried, "how stiff I am! I must have walked much
further than I thought."
In stooping to brush the pine-needles from his robe he
noticed that his beard was snowy white, and that his hands were wrinkled, like
those of an old man. Even the forest itself looked changed to him, for the
trees were larger, and the bushes had disappeared. He wondered if he could be
dreaming, for otherwise, he thought, his senses must be deceiving him. With
great difficulty he found his way back to the village, where he was surprised
to meet unfamiliar faces. He rubbed his eyes again and again, feeling greatly
disturbed.
"I thought that I knew everyone," he muttered to
himself, "but here are people whom I never met before. Who are they, and
why do they stare at me as if I were some wild man of the woods, instead
of hastening to kiss my hand and receive
my benediction?" He was too weary to question them, however, and made his
way to the Monastery. His astonishment increased when he found a stranger in
charge of the gate instead of good Brother Antoine, who had held the office for
more than fifty years.
"Where is the porter?" he asked him falteringly,
"and what has happened to cause the changes which I see around me?"
The Brother looked at him curiously.
"I do not know what you mean," he said, "for
I have been porter here for thirty years, and I can assure you that there have
been no changes in my time."
THOUSAND years,"
said the old monk. "You may see by our books that this is so."
"Then what can have happened to me?" exclaimed the
bewildered monk. "I went out this morning to walk in the forest, and on my
return I find no trace of my old comrades."
Just then two aged monks came slowly by, and Brother Bernard
stepped in front of them.
"Do you not recognise me?" he asked. "Is
there no one here who knows Brother Bernard?"
"'Brother Bernard'?" said the oldest,
reflectively. "We have no Brother of that name in the Monastery now, but I
remember having read of him in our chronicles. He was a most holy man, with the
simple faith of a little child. One morning, they say, he quitted the Monastery
and went to the forest that he might meditate and pray with nothing between him
and the floor of Heaven. He never returned, and though a diligent search was
made, no trace of him could be found. It was thought that he had been carried
up to the skies, like the prophet Elijah, in a chariot of fire: a fitting end
to his life of sanctity."
"How long ago was this?" asked Brother Bernard
tremblingly.
On hearing this Brother Bernard fell on his knees.
"God heard my prayer, and worked a miracle," he
cried, "that I might have faith. He sent His Bird of Paradise to sing to
me, and, while I listened, a thousand years passed by. Now indeed I believe,
and would feign enter His Holy Kingdom."
An excerpt: FolkTales From Many Lands
By Lilan Gask 1865
An excerpt: FolkTales From Many Lands
By Lilan Gask 1865
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